Life Behind Closed Eyes

this blog is REDICULOUSLY STUPID

just saying. which is why I havent posted anything this is SUPER stupid. Life behind closed eyes is all just stupidity and anger. thats it!! new blog. new account about stuff that actually matters! ill post stupid shit on here every so often but if you wanna see my actual opnions and such add my new one.

URL:

http://fromylipstoyours.tumblr.com/

Unimportant Blah Blah Blah

or haters?

think about it.

Lots of Love

Elle

xx

i cant spill anything else to make this go away. i cant help everything and everyone all the time. I love you and i want to help but i feel like i should have full right not to. I love you and I love him and I need him to be wihth me too. I cant lose you…I’m losing too much as it is. I need someone to stand by me…like you always did . I dont’t have the right words to be like this.

Ima say what I’ve always been told

Think of me babe. Even when I’m gone. Think of me often. Move along.

Lots of Love

Elle

xx

The events of yesterday may haunt us forever but would he not want us to just stop. as hard as it may be we have to put this tragedy behind us and put on a killer show. I wish i could un do so much in this life but unfortunatly i cannot. noone can and so all we can do is keep going.

Lots of Love

Elle

xx

isn’t it scary how in an instant people can just disappear? i think some people know exactly what im talking about. Its just so hard to have something so huge hit you. today i lost someone, not someone i was close to or liked especially.. but i did lose a member of my family. We may only see each other during the summer but ive found aplace where people accept me and love me for who i am.. isnt that all family is?

and so now, i’d like to say goodbye to a dear member of my family.

Zachary Smith.

You are loved, and you will be missed. Thankyou for the memories and the new ideas you caused. I’m sorry for the things i didnt stop and had the power of stopping. I’d like for you to know one thing, you will be missed, terribly. and i know posting it on tumblr a bunch of times doesnt mean something but i know that you do know.

This isn’t just for closure from me, its also for the people reading this, treasure every person in your life because it took me losing someone that i didnt get along with very well to relieze that even if we did fight, we were part of something much bigger than just the two of us.

Lots of Love

Elle

xx

its a long time. you can change more than you can imagine. in one year…you could get pregnant..have a baby and still have time to spare. you could make the transition from kid to adult. you can learn so much. experince 365(or 366) days of your life. a year together…or a year apart. things change, you see people differently. you could switch friends in a week…thats 52 friends a year. thats alot of people. you can cry a thousand times, and laugh a million. 60 seconds in a minute. 60 minutes in an hour. 24 hours in a day. 7 days in a week. 52 weeks a year… thats 525,600 minutes a year…thats…alot of seconds (31,449,600…i think) something can change any second.

People can makes mistakes that take up lifetimes and haunt you forever..i think you were one of mine.

Lots of Love

Elle

xx

I hope you and whichever ”girl” you end up with wiilll be very happy. But you will never see me again. and even if you do…dont talk to me…dont say my name because everytime you do my skin crawls.  only have so much memory and i will NOT allow you to fill it anymore. I wanna keep my girls close and those bitches who just pretend OUT of my head. No more stress. No more drama. and all those shady ass liars? im done with games..time to be straight about it, cause i was…and i fell in love.

Just because your dating someone or like someone doesn’t mean you get to call them “your girl” its kinda irritating actually. At the same time its also kind of cute…but its more irritating than it is cute. its like you dont own someone…noone does. and if you think you do then you have some maaaaaajor issues.

Being whipped is another thing that irritates me too. its so annoying to hear you go onnn and onnn about your little lover…its sick.

Im worried about this peircing

im worried she doesnt want to spend alot of time with me

im worried about her vacation

blah blah blah. i dont wanna hear about it and then you beg me for my opnion on you and i tell you your whipped and you dont get it. so i say your clingy and you get hella butthurt. its rediculous.

i have soooo much more to rant about when it comes to relationships..but i have other stuff to do today..

Lots of Love

Elle

xx

its always in some bitches’ mouth. like if you have something to say, grow a pair..stop being a pussy and say it to my face. SERIOUSLY. I’ve been stabbed in the back SO many times and theres always some new shit going around…high school is murder. its just some pretty bitches who are bored with their own lame lives and decide to start stuff. they get enjoyment over other’s drama and HAVE to invole themselves. This is why most of them are two-faced bitches. i’m not saying all of them do because some of the people in high school can be really good people. but most of them have their head shoved up their … thinking that they’re ALWAYS right. and the truth is, they really arent. I’m not gunna lie and say that I’m not one of them and I’m hella chill because I’m not. I can be as bad as the rest of them in high school but at least i admit it instead of those idiots who are all “perfect” and you “wish you were them” I actually have friends. not just little punk ass bitchy followers who are too scared to speak up !!

well im speaking up. Most girls//guys who do this somewhere deep down know they do it. We all talk..thats not what im ranting about..its a human need to insult others..it makes you feel better about yourself. just the amount of two faced bitches we have to deal with at this age is irritating. everyones pretending to be your friend and getting your secrets and in the amount of time it takes to say “WHAT?!” its slapped you in the face and your so called friend is telling everyone something new about you, calling you names, telling secrets. but you trust people anyway because you think maybe, just maybe they might be different and it turns out almost everyone is the same.

Lots of Love

Elle

xx

whenever I open my mouth something goes wrong. today i’ve managed to piss one of the most important people in my life off. and when i lie they get SO mad, which is understandable but when i tell the truth… they get like doubly angry. like if you dont look good in your profile picture on facebook or whatever and i tell you that its “not your best picture” you get SO MAD. when really what exactly did i do wrong?

I think if less people lied about that kinda thing it wouldnt matter as much. it wouldnt be such a big deal to actually be honest.

Lots of Love

Elle

xx

I’m just a crazy mixed up mess of flesh and spirit. Half my mother, Half my father. All me. Everyone I’ve met, Every experience I’ve had have carved me into what I am today. Every word I’ve whispered and every note I’ve sang have gotten me here. Every person I’ve hurt, and Every person who has hurt me has turned me into me. If you don’t like me you can blame me and call me a bitch or you can get the fuck over yourself because chances are your not much better than I am. At least I know who I am and where I’m from. I’m strong and I stand up for what I belive in, or don’t believe in. Some people let the pressures of society to push them around and i feel sorry for those people. If you have nothing to stand for then you have nothing to get up for once you get knocked down. So for all you haters in the world. I’m done with whatever immature shit you have to throw at me. I’m better than that. I’m better than you.

Lots of Love

Elle

xx